future of the day

I've been thinking about alot lately... I've been thinking about relationships, friends and eneimes and I really don't understand any of it... I guess when it comes down to it I'm the weak little immature novice...

It's funny thou I always thought that I was the one that had it all together, I find out that the people around me the ones that i thought needed my support are more in tune with reality then me... even sitting here now on my computer I feel FAKE! Like I'm living in my own imaginary world and that well it's kinda hard to explain... Even with all the vocabulary in the world It's still shifty and I can't STAND IT! I hate everyone for what they've done, absoulutly NOTHING... fix me DON'T break me BUILD ME UP don't KNOCK ME DOWN

Well now I'm done I've gotten roughly a portion of what I'm feeling at the moment off my chest...but why does it still feel too heavy to bear, but it's not enough to care.